Relationships That Matter

I’ve been looking back and connecting my own dots lately.  I’m not sure why, perhaps because suddenly my daughter seems to be growing up at warp speed, or maybe it’s because the calendar is telling me I’ve just made another trip around the sun this month and the reflection of memories and relationships are coming to mind.

I am fascinated by relationships.  Of course, in recalling my path, it is easy to see why, although at the time there were moments it seemed impossibly difficult and painful.  Relationships have played a huge role in my life, in helping me see who I am, what I am meant to do, and how to expand, grow, and find true meaning and fulfillment in life.

There are three relationships in particular that have touched my very soul and are a significant reason I’m a life & relationship coach today.  Looking backward, I can’t help but have reverence for the connections of these three relationships in my life.

I was with each of these three beautiful people at their deathbeds when they passed away.  And, ironically, I was holding each of their hands as they crossed over.

I was intimately involved during the last few years leading up to their deaths, spending my days with them, traveling with them to hospitals or nursing facilities, caring for them, and loving them.  And being loved by them.

It’s funny, I’ve spent a large part of my life missing those relationships that mattered to me so dearly, only to realize that the biggest gift they gave me was allowing me to matter in return, and to show me the most beautiful parts of myself. And so in that way, they are each still with me every day.

I saw a transformation in each of these dearly loved ones in the final months before their deaths which has touched me deeply and taught me lessons that no other teacher, spiritual guru, or methodology has even come close to.  I have learned that relationships, and not just end-of-life relationships, are mirrors of the true essence of who we are.

The first of these three journeys occurred while I was in my late teens, as I experienced my beloved grandmother’s battle at age 72  with stage 4 colon cancer. She underwent surgeries, chemotherapy, and finally what was for me a very difficult death to witness.

The second was in my early 30’s as I traveled with my dad, who was diagnosed with stage 4 kidney cancer at age 57, given 2-6 months life expectancy, and who passed away nearly two years later.

The third time was just a few years ago, during what most people would consider mid-life, in my early 40’s.  My dear uncle passed at the age of 93, having lived a long and healthy life, but who struggled at the end with the loss of independence and self-reliance.

With each death, thoughts such as “did I do enough” and “should we have made different choices, or have selected different treatments,” haunted me.  I carried deep self-judgment and responsibility for the choices made and for the outcomes.

It has taken me some time to come to peace with this, but now  I know without a doubt we each do have our own journeys.  And it is the connections of love along the way that matter in the end.

Finally, I now know that I made a difference as each of these amazing souls came to the end of their travels here on earth. We did the best we could with what we knew at the time.

At the end of the day, to have been there for someone, and to know you have made a loving difference in their life, means you have mattered.

I mattered.

And it all comes back to love.

We as human beings want to know we matter.  That our lives matter.  It’s how we find fulfillment.

The lessons I learned from these three beloved souls, and the journeys we took together are deep and far-reaching for me. I am not one to believe in mere coincidences, and so I see meaning and significance in the timing in which I experienced each of these journeys during my life.

I have come to learn that relationships are indeed our greatest treasures, our wisest teachers, and deep mirrors to our strengths & beauty, and they also show us where we need healing.

But these mirrors are not just present at the end of life.  They are there in the living, the day-to-day interactions and relationships.  The value of healthy and fulfilling relationships in life is immeasurable.

At the end of the day, it’s our relationships that matter. And the relationships that truly matter are relationships that are mutually connected, mutually respectful, and mutually honoring of one another. 

They are in our lovers, our friends, our family, and our businesses.  They are at work, at play, and at home.  They are even there when we are alone, in the relationship we have with our very selves, and also in the dust and fallout that is left behind from the relationships of our past.

Each relationship in our lives reflects a part of us if we are willing to see it.  I’ve learned never to take for granted the treasure of the deep and delightful relationships I have in my life every day.

I’m deeply grateful that I’ve found this treasure in my living…. in the relationship with my man – in the strong yet tender support of my husband & best friend as he holds my hand in his, connecting us in love and partnership.

It is in the relationships with our children, as I recall the many times my daughter’s small hand tucked into mine as she grew up.

It is in the laughter and good times with dear friends as we have that playful high-five, or the clink of glasses over a good joke, connecting moment, or great times.

Or as we comfort, or am comforted, by the touch of hand over hand during those moments of sadness or loss.

It is even in the seemingly casual business and work relationships, as we shake the hand of an associate, or meet someone for the first time, feeling the goodwill and connection.

Hopefully, as you read this, you are thinking of the hands you have held in your life, or are holding now, that has connected you to the truth about yourself.

You do have a choice in how a relationship affects your life, if it is connected, healthy, and thriving, or if it is draining and a one-way flow of energy.  

Perhaps we lose some loved ones way too early in order to remind us how precious and fragile life is, and to show us how to live in our own true, authentic joy now, today, while we are doing the living. To matter to each other. And to honor the treasure of healthy and fulfilling relationships in your life which support your authentic joy, and reflect the beauty within you.

Your relationships matter. You matter. Even if we haven’t spoken, or met, I hope you can feel that you matter to me.  Because you do.

Until next time — Live Well, Love Well, Be Well.
Much Love, Marci

20 Responses

  1. I totally agree!!! I cared for both my mum and a Dad to honor their wish to die at home. A challenge but a richly rewarding one. To me life is all relationships. Relationship with myself, my spiritual guidance, my kids, my family, my friends, my neighbours, my clients, my animals, the garden, what I eat – everything is a relationship !! And all need care, grace, appreciation and understanding. And love!! Xxcc

    1. So true, Deb, everything in life is indeed a relationship. Thank you for these beautiful words! Much love.

  2. Marci, this was just beautiful, thank you for sharing your journey and in doing so reminding me to honor my own. Our relationships are indeed what matters most in life

    1. Oh Ms. Jen – thank you for stopping by :) You have much to honor in your life, and I’m grateful you are in mine. Sending love!

  3. I am fortunate to have deep, authentic relationships with my family and friends. When I look back and connect my dots, I see that they have always supported me in every facet of my life. I am beyond grateful.

  4. Marci it is lovely to read about your journey and how much you have learned and gained from each of these very special relationships. So often we miss the bigger picture and don’t see how important these life events are. I am so glad to see you honor your loved ones and to see how they have made you who you are today.

  5. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story! I agree that every relationship matters because they each teach us about ourselves.

  6. Yes. I remember after my mom died and sitting in her living room soon to be gone and thought “you can’t take it with you. All you can take with you is love” That was a defining moment for me. … and btw…. just so you know…. You matter to me too :)

    1. It’s true, the important lesson in all of life is that Love is truly all there is. And thank you, Elizabeth, your warmth always makes me smile – such a beautiful soul. Sending love :)

  7. Marci, deep resonance for me and my experiences with losing loved ones too early. Our loving relationships are dear dear blessings. Love this quote..beautiful truth~ “relationships are indeed our greatest treasures, our wisest teachers, and deep mirrors to our strengths & beauty, and they also shows us where we need healing.” XO

    1. Dana, your beautiful empathy and depth shine through :) And I agree, there’s much to celebrate in our loving relationships. Much Love!

  8. It’s so easy to be missing the people who are gone, forgetting about the people who are here. I see this often! Gotta think now who I need to be sure I’m connecting with. What a beautiful message.

    1. Karen, I agree, living and honoring life as it is unfolding in the present is so important, and connecting with those relationships in our lives here and now is such a beautiful thing to celebrate! :)

  9. simply beautiful, marci. your words touched me deeply. reminded of my vivacious mom – she left me too early, but she taught me to live vibrantly.

    1. Oh, thank you April. And your gorgeous, vibrant energy shines through. Much love!

  10. Marci, so beautifully written. The relationships with many of my family, particularly my cousins are some of the dearest most authentic relationships that have been with me all of my life! I love how you say “you do have a choice in how a relationship affects your life, if it is healthy and thriving, or if it is draining.” I constantly need that reminder. Thank you :)

    1. And I constantly need that reminder as well! :) Thanks for stopping by Tania, thank you for sharing! xo

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